i have slowly been consuming
the last traces of my mother
i hold the gurgling maw
of the vacuum as it swallows
tawny strands of hair &
dust on hardwood floor
today i read that household
dust is mostly skin
as if to say outside dust
is stranger or more spectacular
as if to say i am watching
this monster tear into
my mother again & again
& calling it “being productive”
my teeth wearing themselves
down on leftovers: rice & soup & barley
picturing my mother stooped
over the stove bloodletting
when she was here
i couldn’t wait for her to go
now i sit alone in the freezer
& eat everything
without breathing
oh i eat it all
- Ang Shuang, Asian American Writer’s Workshop